gemini new moon got me like…

dear universe,

sooooo, it’s 4:01am, and I’m wide awake. i’m feeling this gemini super new moon energy. duality. honing in. thinking and feeling things through… “zooming out”, as michael would say. i must keep remembering to zoom out, yet remain tuned in.

i’m also checking out short form vs. long form versions of copywriting. i know, i know…. it’s like, whaaaaaaaaaat. but i’m trying to formulate a plan on becoming a PAID WRITER. preferably remote.

the longer i listen to the voices in my head that keep me in this weird comfort zone, the edgier i feel. and not edgy like cool edgy- like more at the proverbial ledge-edgy. angst-wise. (Joli reminds me that there is no “ledge” though… lol, yes it’s all in my head. self-masochist vibes indeed, ha)

i’m going to be 42yo in less than 3 months and i can honestly say that i am not doing what i want to be doing in my career for the rest of my existence. and the promotion that i’m being pushed towards, i’ve come to realize, is not MY version of my future self. my creative energies have become stagnant and somewhat sad.

i’m tired most days, not just physically and emotionally, but spiritually too.

but i am still inspired. things outside of my work life are what give me my sparks. and i still have paris.

PARIS….

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s